Search This Blog

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

existential

Where is this quantum of existentialism…I cannot hear the heartbeat through the cold distance….show me the way…and although blind, I wish not see the items unclear- vague possibilities have brought upon drought in a nation withering opulent….I have sought my donor and while I posses the creativity, I cannot bear the simplicity of this…

Lavish upon me your wisdom….I welcome the corruption….I wish not only to entertain you…. stop the whimsical; allowing it to evolve into the butterfly that you are….how can you entertain such pretentious acts….I have not and am no fool to equip myself with bleakness such as this…I want cold steal piercing fleshly caramel revealing within a forethought of preponderance….and still, you seem cold…. Yet to provide warmth…would be…obvious

How do I substantiate the inadequate…..remain lost…to later find that it please us to neither question nor release…haughty pride plunges forth to expose…I am lost

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Unexplainable Ecstatic

Cower as I shout your name from the rooftops
The ache of isolation sets in to draw me to blurt expressions of sacrifice
Although I want nothing more than your patience, I want that smile…
Your contentment would be my pleasure
Can we be the idiom of what my core is?
Can I just see…everything
I see you in me, while longing to bring it out- I know I cannot.
I grieve the loss of familiarity and the desire for a grasp intensified as I closed my eyes for a night of restlessness.
Yearning is wrong, right?
Speak to me- to tell myself that the desire will be fulfilled shortly and cease existence
Not just the corporal connection,
I want to meet your soul at the door and bid it farewell as it enters the disquieting effects of my essence.
Is it possible that I could be…
You are an unspeakable desire

Thursday, October 12, 2006

The 5 Commandments of Dating

I read this article http://www.christianitytoday.com/singles/newsletter/mind61011.html it gives some very good information that I just had to share on dating. I think that if read by both sexes there may actually be some relationships out there that could stand the test of time, lol.
But read it, it may save you thousands of dollars!

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

My Post from Empirical Mysticism-Bravenet

This is my porn as the sunrises off my mountain peak into the blue above
The glance you provide bounces off my soul and beats within the warm flowing flight of my imagination.
How ideal of you to be so…
Anticipation builds as the hour draws me near to you…Can you feel it?
I can be extremely fanatic when it comes to your voice… breath upon my lower extremities
And you know this…
I can’t contain the pleasure that it provided with an utterance- yet you have become familiar with me so well, how?
In this experience of education, I am the pupil. So teach me.
What delight!
Warmth…your passion derives from your soul of thought, and I am pleased.
This is yet another magnificent design…
My heart races at a mere consideration of indecency.
Touching without a touch, and now I am weak.
Bring me your depth, your perception as your glance touches my soul- I can no longer bear, so now, I must release.
And I can’t wait until…your glance touches me- indecently.

Read the threads for this post by clicking on the title, as they are sure to bring forth that much needed inspiration that will open doors...
This will also bring clarification as to the meaning of what I wrote here. But I just had to share this with those that read my blog.

Friday, October 06, 2006

Loss of dominance

I detest those feelings.
Why must I conclude the negative when I know nothing of the actual?
I swear my psyche is torn on things to bring discomfort- yet perseverance prevails!
Trusting is an attribute that I long have struggled to afford, because I cannot control.
I swear on these things that must be costly to life- to let go…
Keep on-step ahead of those…to that which is detrimental, but keep close.
My mind runs ramped through thoughts of…disclosure.
I cannot control.
Breathe fickleness absence.
Like warriors in the field, I crave to be the last standing.
I scrap and struggle with myself to be the victor of…me.
I feel small, minute even- still frustrated.
I cannot control.
I have little patience for the things of this life,
The clock and I are not acquaintances.
I cannot control the fears or desires of my heart,
Those things that plague bad breath upon me and shudder at thoughts of my victory.
My essence, all that is me is ramped.
“I no longer am, but I am becoming…”
What! Thoughts of indiscretion and patterns or habits, hard to break.
Do I misguide my heart into fortitude? Is it misguidance?
How well would one know the tell-tell signs of… gratification
My spirit soars when being blessed with presence- but will it after time
Will what trust that I have built be broken? What prosperity I have built up?
Or will you complement, balance and match with… all?
You know the clock and I aren’t friends,
And don’t want to make hasty selections
How intimidating, me.
I can’t do but the stomach the loss of…control.
My emotions of time and space and…well, rationale
I can no longer wait, I want this have since I seen it-but…
But…
I cannot control.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Inspirational Message

THE OLD MAN AND THE BASKET (Author Unknown)

The story is told of an old man who lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern Kentucky with his young grandson. Each morning, Grandpa was up early sitting at the kitchen table reading from his old worn-out Bible. His grandson who wanted to be just like him tried to imitate him in any way he could. One day the grandson asked, "Papa, I try to read the Bible just like you but I don't understand it, and what I do understand I forget as soon as I close the book. What good does reading the Bible do?" The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in the stove and said, "Take this coal basket down to the river and bring back a basket of water." The boy did as he was told, even though all the water leaked out before he could get back to the house. The grandfather laughed and said, "You will have to move a little faster next time," and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again. This time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned home. Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was "impossible to carry water in a basket," and he went to get a bucket instead. The old man said, "I don't want a bucket of water; I want a basket of water. You can do this. You're just not trying hard enough," and he went out the door to watch the boy try again. At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would leak out before he got very far . The boy scooped the water and ran hard, but when he reached his grandfather the basket was again empty. Out of breath, he said, "See Papa, it's useless!" "So you think it is useless?" The old man said, "Look at the basket." The boy looked at the basket and for the first time he realized that the basket looked different. Instead of a dirty old coal basket, it was clean. "Son, that's what happens when you read the Bible. You might not understand or remember everything, but when you read it, it will change you from the inside out. That is the work of God in our lives. To change us from the inside out and to slowly transform us into the image of His son."

Friday, April 07, 2006


Zbed Posted by Picasa

Native Folklore

An elderly Cherokee Native American was teaching his

grandchildren about life.

He said to them, "A fight is going on inside me, it is a

terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One wolf is

evil---he is fear, anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed,

arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies,

false pride, competition, superiority, and ego.

The other is good ---he is joy, peace, love, hope, sharing,

serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, friendship,

empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.

This same fight is going on inside you, and inside every

other person, too."

They thought about it for a minute and then one child

asked his grandfather," Which wolf will win?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."




I just read this today and it touched me. I guess because I am
having a hard time with fear and pain trying to conquer me. I
thought about it in the context of my life. Which one am I letting
win, well before I thought about it- it was the bad one. Now I have
to and will change that. If you think about everyday we go through
a struggle, and decisions have to be made as to what we are to do
about it. Do we take the positive road and move forth with the
grace of God or do we allow negativity to swallow us and drown in a
pit of our own self pity. I have decided that in order for me to
get closer with God, I must not allow to the devil to win battles
within me. Easier said that done- but from following his word and
seeking his face. I know what I needs to do.

My favorite artist (Matisyahu) has this exceptional verse in his
new CD cover that I must share;

Psalm 27;

THE LORD IS MY LIGHT AND MY LIFE. WHOM SHALL I FEAR? THE LORD IS
THE FOUNDATION OF MY LIFE, WHOM SHALL I DREAD? WHEN EVEIL-DOERS
COME UP AGAINST ME, MY HEART WILL NOT FEAR, THOUGH WAR SHOULD WAGE
UP AGAINST ME. EVEN THEN I WILL BE CONFIDENT, ONE THING I ASK OF
THE LORD ONLY THIS DO I SEEK: TO LIVE IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD ALL
THE DAYS OF MY LIFE, TO BEHOLD THE GRACIOUSNESS OF THE LORD, TO
FREQUENT GOD’S TEMPLE. FOR YOU CONCEAL ME IN YOUR PAVILION ON THE
DAY OF EVIL. YOU HIDE ME IN THE COVERT OF YOUR TENT. YOU LIFT ME UP
ON A ROCK. AND NOW MY HEAD WILL BE LIFTED UP ABOVE MY ENEMIES ALL
AROUND ME. AND I WILL OFFER SACRIFICES IN YOUR TABERNACLE WITH THE
SOUND OF TRUMPETS. I WILLSING, YEA, I WILL SING PRAISES TO THE
LORD. LISTEM O GOD WHEN I CRY ALOUD. HAVE MERCY ON ME; ANSWERME. ON
YOUR BEHALF HAS MY HEART SAID "SEEK MY FACE." YOUR FACE, O GOD, DO
I SEEK. HIDE NOT YOUR FACE FROM ME. DO NOT PUT YOUR SERVANT OFF IN
ANGER. YOU ARE MY HELP. FORSAKE ME NOT, NOR ABANDAON ME, O GOD OF
MY SALVATION. FOR THOUGH MY FATHER AND MOTHER HAVE FORSAKEN ME, THE
LORD WILL LIFT ME UP. TEACH ME YOUR WAY O LORD, AND LEAD ME ON A
LEVEL PATH BECAUSE OF MY EVER WATCHFUL FOES. DELIVER ME NOT OVER
UNTO THE WILL OF MY ADVERSARIES. FOR FALSE WINESSESES HAVE RISEN UP
AGAINST ME AND THOSE WHO BREATHE VIOLENCE. IF I HAD NOT BELIVEVED
TO LOOK UPON THE GOODNESS OF GOD, IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING. Look
to the lord for hope, be strong and of good courage. Yea, wait for
the Lord.

Which do you posses?

Which do you posses, are you religious or do you have a relationship with God? What does being religious mean to you?

On this website
http://www.clarifyingchristianity.com/relationship.shtml it’s
spoken on this site many of things that I have asked myself about
being a Christian and having a relationship with God.
Here are some explanations of what Religion is…

Religion can be very different than having a Relationship with God
through Jesus Christ. Religions are man made, and are based on
trying to get to God through rules and regulations and works. Man
made religions all are based on people's efforts at reaching God
and being made right with Him through their own efforts. God's plan
for man's salvation and for being right with Him is told throughout
the Bible, in the Old Testament and the New Testament. God's plan
is not based on people's efforts and good works, but is based on
His amazing Love and amazing Grace for us; His plan involved His
precious Son Jesus paying the price and cost for our sins on the
cross. You need to put ALL of your trust and faith in Jesus and in
what He did for us on the cross, and not in any religion or in your
own efforts. Simply put all of your trust and faith in Jesus, and
accept His gift of salvation and eternal life, and experience the
joy of having a right RELATIONSHIP of love with God.



Religion (Self Effort, Works)

Goal: reach out to God, try to work your way into heaven

Means: diligent service & works, with hopes of a reward (heaven)

Power: good, honest effort through self-determination

Control: self-motivation and self control

Results: apathy, failure, chronic guilt, eternal separation from
God

Salvation Through Faith In Jesus Christ (Personal Relationship)

Goal: trust fully in Jesus, then live to please Him

Means: confess sins, repent, yield self to Jesus

Power: the Holy Spirit does God's work in and through us

Control: allow the Holy Spirit to control & direct our lives

Results: love, joy, peace, freedom, power eternal life in
heaven,...

"Man's way to reach God is religion; God's way to reach man is
Jesus."

"I (Jesus) am the way, the truth, and the life. No one may come to
the Father except through me."
- John 14:6

"For by grace are you saved, through faith; and this not of your
own, it is the gift of God. Not of works, lest any man should
boast." - Ephesians 2:8-9

I found this verse (below) through a friend and it showed what the
benefits are of having a relationship with God to me at least.


Jeremiah 29:11-14
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans
to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a
future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and
I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek
me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the
LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. [b] I will gather
you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,"
declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which
I carried you into exile."

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Whom do you serve, flesh or the spirit?

Obedience to the Lord requires developing sensitivity to His ways, which comes through His Word. We are not just to read the Word, but to do the Word. (James 1:22.)

I like this prayer;
"Father, I choose to be obedient in every area of my life. I will follow Your plan and not my own. In Jesus' name, amen.".

It’s hard especially today to follow the spirit. But when we do good thing happen, I know that we can all testify to that. As I get closer to leave each day- I have began to notice things in my character that need to be changed. I can’t go to a new city with the same habits and mentality that I have currently. I must change so that I go into my new city with a better spirit so that I can try and avoid temptation. I ask you ladies to continuously pray with me and for me that when I do leave- I will continue to be strengthened in the word of God.


(...If anyone intends to come after Me, let him deny himself [forget, ignore, disown, and lose sight of himself and his own interests] and take up his cross, and...follow with Me [continually, cleaving steadfastly to Me]. —Mark 8:34
Jesus is coming back for a glorious Church without spot, wrinkle, or blemish. (Ephesians 5:27 KJV.) One of the best ways to become glorious quickly is through prompt and extreme obedience.Obedience and selfishness are opposing forces. If we are to be glorious, we must be obedient. In order to be obedient, we must be willing to say no to self daily. We must learn to say, "Yes, Lord, yes," and to say it quickly!We need to learn to follow the promptings of the Holy Spirit. He lives in us and is constantly attempting to lead and guide us. He gently lets us know when we are going in the right direction or the wrong direction. )